Apology

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he10th3r310
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Apology

Post by he10th3r310 »

For wrong date in jumps... I've had some problems with pc and had to boot. Maybe a virus. I can maybe tell right dates to admin if it's necessary to correct them.

Anyway, it's been very hard time for me recently. Even I stopped playing a long time ago, I still couldn't stop looking at records list tens of times every day. This has been stressing me a lot. I've seen some people come closer and closer... even beating me. This has made me aggressive, like a lose to swedes in olympics. Last night I was going to sleep when I suddenly saw a new impossible to beat record, which I can't believe as a truth, but I lost my sleep and my whole day has been a disaster. This was not the first time.

I'm going to tell you people, that the only thing why I ever played this game is that I want my name on the top of the lists, because it's the only thing in my life that can make me feel worth enough as a human being, in front of the people near me. I'm not good at anything, I look bad and I have horrible physical and mental problems. I tried to take life back in control but I failed. I've lost for example 20 kilograms during last year and I already had a low weight a year ago. I think my life is coming to it's end soon if I really don't make the final decision myself before that. Sorry to tell you. I feel bad all the time and nothing can help. Yes, I've tried everything. No one has been able to help me...

The only way would be permanent disconnection from internet world. But it's maybe too late, and I will regret for the rest of my life that I ever made a decision to have net, and do all this stuff here. Now it has turned into a nightmare. I've lost so much of my lifetime here. And this game has been the worst addiction ever, well not the game itself but the LIST. The game is only a tool that I use to have name on some lists, that I then show to people.

I have sometimes been praying for cleaning of my records, but I guess it wouldnt help at all since I would need a total block to this website also, which is impossible due to dynamic ip-range. But if you see some options Jussi, please contact me as soon as possible. I want to live better, as long as I still live...

Anyone can of course talk to me. I need some help if you have time or patience.

And last but not least, if someone here has something against me, please come talking to me and we will solve it out. I do not want to see any spam and insults written about me on dsj.wikia. Thanks.

-Hex
DSJ2 Total Length: 5438,88m
DSJ3 Total Length: 7825,25m
DSJ4 Total Lenght: 3560,25m (offline)

Combined: 16824.38m

I'm a retired player. I won't jump more competitive jumps, but I will anyway support the game future development as I can.
pikolak
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Re: Apology

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Fingers Crossed Heikki! You are OFFLINE Master and you have ever been!
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lucek23
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Re: Apology

Post by lucek23 »

I'm worst at everything and i want live. You must really live, not pretend that you're alive. I recommend a visit to a psychologist.
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Bartek Palewicz
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Re: Apology

Post by Bartek Palewicz »

I'm just wondering - do you know that it is not real at all? I mean there is something like e-sports but that's still E sports :). Anyway, i hope you'll find a way to get yourself out of this mess.
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he10th3r310
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Post by he10th3r310 »

Bartek Palewicz wrote:I'm just wondering - do you know that it is not real at all? I mean there is something like e-sports but that's still E sports :). Anyway, i hope you'll find a way to get yourself out of this mess.
Its not nice that internet = real life, as real life = internet for me. You know, I feel like unconscious even I'm awake all time. I think pc is finally destroying brain or something... But just to tell, if someone didn't redirect me to ski jumping games in the past, or didnt ask me to make facebook account, or encourage me to upload videos to youtube, my life would be much more easier now.
DSJ2 Total Length: 5438,88m
DSJ3 Total Length: 7825,25m
DSJ4 Total Lenght: 3560,25m (offline)

Combined: 16824.38m

I'm a retired player. I won't jump more competitive jumps, but I will anyway support the game future development as I can.
J.MIRO
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Re: Apology

Post by J.MIRO »

Please read book of Sven Hannawald. He was really like you. He has Triumph, Fall and this time is for Come Back to Life.
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he10th3r310
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Re: Apology

Post by he10th3r310 »

Btw, my records from the list are now removed. I hope you can forget me now, and I can forget the game. Most people know the reason why I asked for the removal...

Good bye all.
DSJ2 Total Length: 5438,88m
DSJ3 Total Length: 7825,25m
DSJ4 Total Lenght: 3560,25m (offline)

Combined: 16824.38m

I'm a retired player. I won't jump more competitive jumps, but I will anyway support the game future development as I can.
Szymon11
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Re: Apology

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he10th3r310 wrote:Btw, my records from the list are now removed. I hope you can forget me now, and I can forget the game. Most people know the reason why I asked for the removal...

Good bye all.
Good decision! I wish you weren't a slave of this game since now... If you wanted set them afresh, you wouldn't because of second whopping wasting your time.
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If you cannot forget about DSJ, you had better try something another. There are many other things or occupations which can turn your life's world on its head diametrically. Have a try in some sport's activities, eg. running or football. These kinds of spending time will make you mighty addicted of, but it is a well-heralding prediction. Not only they will make you energetic but moreover, they will improve your willngness to life.
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Have you got your favorite science? Maybe it is the best time to start being in it better and better? Have you enrolled in the any university, or not yet? Think about your future, it is really improtant to have good work. Well-paid employ ought to make you contented and confident. If you got it, you wouldn't have no more time to pay attention on petty things, like gaming.
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These words I wrote are a good solution to leave off your negative habits. Consider them and become free and happy. I wish you all the best on new, better path in your life. Greetings! :)
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KamilStoch
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Post by KamilStoch »

Szymon11 wrote:
he10th3r310 wrote:Btw, my records from the list are now removed. I hope you can forget me now, and I can forget the game. Most people know the reason why I asked for the removal...

Good bye all.
Good decision! I wish you weren't a slave of this game since now... If you wanted set them afresh, you wouldn't because of second whopping wasting your time.
...
If you cannot forget about DSJ, you had better try something another. There are many other things or occupations which can turn your life's world on its head diametrically. Have a try in some sport's activities, eg. running or football. These kinds of spending time will make you mighty addicted of, but it is a well-heralding prediction. Not only they will make you energetic but moreover, they will improve your willngness to life.
...
Have you got your favorite science? Maybe it is the best time to start being in it better and better? Have you enrolled in the any university, or not yet? Think about your future, it is really improtant to have good work. Well-paid employ ought to make you contented and confident. If you got it, you wouldn't have no more time to pay attention on petty things, like gaming.
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These words I wrote are a good solution to leave off your negative habits. Consider them and become free and happy. I wish you all the best on new, better path in your life. Greetings! :)
Well, i think Hex had problem with losing or something. Since he tolld about how he lost nights of sleep because he was afraid of his records beaten. Also, he openly tolld about cheating in facebook. That he was doing it for long time for having name full of the list. And he could not accept that someone can beat his records in fair play. Also continously telling how much he hate one player of this game... But anyway, i dont care if he cheated or not, this is only a game, and i dont hate Hex or anything. I really hope he can fix his life problems as it seems he has some. Take care man.
Maciejo-96
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Re: Apology

Post by Maciejo-96 »

he10th3r310 wrote:I hope you can forget me now
Wait, wait. Why did you write it? I was shocked when I saw what you had written.
KamilStoch wrote:And he could not accept that someone can beat his records in fair play. Also continously telling how much he hate one player of this game...
You meant me, that's true. I'm sorry, but after I had bought the key I didn't think that I would make this situation. When I jumped to 1st place, I didn't know that I would make Heikki angry. But after my incredible WR in Klingenthal, and this all situation with him, I realised that in 100% but I didn't know how to behave in this situation. But, well, I remember his words: "if i used hack, how it is possible that someone can do better jumps fair... this is what i dont understand" - so? It's 100% possible. And his next words: "you are happy with hacked records" "but i dont want a cheater like you lead the game" - he lied. He doesn't have arguments that I am cheating. All my records are jumped without all cheats. I am clear player and everyone who call me cheater lies really much.
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he10th3r310
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Re: Apology

Post by he10th3r310 »

I would like to say 'stfu' you both but well... You are right in a way. I cant stand being 1st, if I'm not 100% dominating. Which is almost impossible anywhere. First there was Siwy, then it was you. You still have to admit that I won in game, but I lost in life. Actually, which makes a winner? In this case everyone else is winner, and I am a loser. Sad fact...

Anyway, isn't it like if a great painter burns his all known works in a fire because he can't take competition and fame? I did the same for my records. They are gone, forever. No one can retrieve them... Always, as long as I live, my closest competitor will be my worst enemy. And in this game it was you Maciej... So sad. And what about cheating? Only person himself knows what he does. I bet you wouldn't tell even if guys were pointing you with guns lol. This is such important thing for you... As important, as your life, and as it was for me...
DSJ2 Total Length: 5438,88m
DSJ3 Total Length: 7825,25m
DSJ4 Total Lenght: 3560,25m (offline)

Combined: 16824.38m

I'm a retired player. I won't jump more competitive jumps, but I will anyway support the game future development as I can.
Maciejo-96
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Re: Apology

Post by Maciejo-96 »

@up

First of all, it's not as important as you wrote about it. This game is like sport - but from some records are fun, from some are sense of life. For me it's first those - the fun. I didn't think that you hate close, hard rivalry, but now I know.

Maybe all remember Jaluvka and Pfleger - they were doing incredible results, and they didn't want to play online, where cheating is impossible or visible, so a lot of players were suspecting them. And some of them knew that they were doing in DSJ3 impossible to do without cheating results. Now we have these situation - me, Śiwy, shanq for example - we have incredible jumps and we were (or are if someone is there) suspected for using slowmotion. But what results we did on online - not all know. shanq hardly ever played online this season, but he was really high. Śiwy played more often, and he was high too. And finally me - not going to say. I don't see any reason for suspecting us.

...maybe gibbon, but it's possible to do it without slowmotion. And Tom, Georg, Dominik, shanq, me and others who do gibbon can do it well - of course without slowmotion. Suspecting for using slowmotion because of incredible records (usually WR) it's not sure because of no arguments. It's usually jealousy because often someone can't jump longer so suspections start.

The main reason why I don't cheat is: I want to play fair. It wouldn't have been okay if I had did impossible records with cheating. I propagate clear playing without cheats.

Thanks.
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he10th3r310
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Re: Apology

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I don't want to start cheating topic with you again. I've had enough of your convinces about being innocent. I should ask, do you have proof about that you do NOT cheat? :) No, you failed even with sending the video for me even you promised. Anyway, dont send it, because it would be even more awful for me if you actually were clean...

Even every kind of loss hurts me a lot and causes me feel pain for weeks or months (sometimes years), I can luckily compensate any loss with money. Its the only way for me to feel satisfiction after any loss in anything. http://i.imgur.com/B6tsOJi.jpg. Sometimes its just hard to earn this...
DSJ2 Total Length: 5438,88m
DSJ3 Total Length: 7825,25m
DSJ4 Total Lenght: 3560,25m (offline)

Combined: 16824.38m

I'm a retired player. I won't jump more competitive jumps, but I will anyway support the game future development as I can.
Schlieri89
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Re: Apology

Post by Schlieri89 »

he10th3r310 wrote:http://i.imgur.com/B6tsOJi.jpg. Sometimes its just hard to earn this...
:OOOOOOOO WTF? I never saw so much money...
he10th3r310
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Re: Apology

Post by he10th3r310 »

Maślana wrote:
he10th3r310 wrote:I don't want to start cheating topic with you again. I've had enough of your convinces about being innocent. I should ask, do you have proof about that you do NOT cheat? :) No, you failed even with sending the video for me even you promised. Anyway, dont send it, because it would be even more awful for me if you actually were clean...

Even every kind of loss hurts me a lot and causes me feel pain for weeks or months (sometimes years), I can luckily compensate any loss with money. Its the only way for me to feel satisfiction after any loss in anything. http://i.imgur.com/B6tsOJi.jpg. Sometimes its just hard to earn this...
Like a casino?
All of your records are clean?
Yes.
Well, I tell you. I quit my dsj career and removed records for two reasons: 1: I had terrible addiction (as some others seem to have also...), 2: cheaters were using their cheats to beat MY records, which I owned totally. I can't accept it. Hopefully Jussi can develop some kind of cheat prevention system as there was used with DSJ3 and WIN XP.

I still hope all cheaters of this game do what they have to, and remove their records from list, even if they don't admit cheating in public.

Sometimes everything ends. This is now my last message, and you will not hear anymore about me. Good bye all!
DSJ2 Total Length: 5438,88m
DSJ3 Total Length: 7825,25m
DSJ4 Total Lenght: 3560,25m (offline)

Combined: 16824.38m

I'm a retired player. I won't jump more competitive jumps, but I will anyway support the game future development as I can.
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